44 and not too sore

Today I turn 44 yrs old. I am also 295 days alcohol, drug and smoke free.

I had my tarot cards read the other day by a friend of a friend who truly does have a gift. The last time I had them read was several years ago and I was really struggling. I was in a pretty dark place and already feeling sad and lonely in the relationship and I don’t remember a lot of what she told me but I do remember crying through most of the reading. This time she told me to take notes. So I did.

She laid the cards out in their nice little rows and all I saw was a LOT of cups and swords and what looked like a person being tortured in the first row, and a devil in there in one of the rows, and a death card (I think) and some sort of burning tower near the end and other pictures that looked a little scary.

“Wow” the card reader said. I exhaled nervously. “No, really, this is amazing. I haven’t seen cards this great in a long time. This is fantastic” she tried to assure me. Then she started off with the first row which represented recent past, and she got a little choked up and she told me “You’ve been through so much, it’s been really tough for you, but you’re coming out of that dark dark place and you are doing great. You’re doing so great, and you are on the right path”

Here are some of the notes I took:

  • Take weekend trips (she told me that it’s important that I take time for myself, that I get away, that I “take weekend trips”. I have been trying to do this at least once a month so honestly I think my mouth fell open with surprise when she said this)
  • Tap into things that you’re not familiar with (wow, that has been the theme this past 295 days! lol)
  • Devil card – temptation – trust instincts – go for it
  • Categorize and weigh options and pros and cons
  • Doing a great job of working on myself
  • take inventory of myself
  • Hanged man – decision making – take time
  • In a few months I will need to make a major decision that could result in something lifechanging and amazing (I think this was the burning tower and death card row)

Oh and also that I really need to work on my organization skills and be careful with my money, be thankful of things and some other stuff too. It was interesting and fun!


  1. saoirsek · August 16, 2017

    Happy happy birthday ❤️

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  2. Elizabeth · August 16, 2017

    Happy birthday and congrats on 295!

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  3. NoWineImFine · August 17, 2017

    What a neat list! You have a wonderful friend – I love her suggestion to take notes.
    Wishing you a wonderful birthday. You’re such an inspiration, more than you know. ❤️

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    • shehidbehindtheglass · August 17, 2017

      Thank you so much! I was so glad that she let me take notes, as it has been neat to go back and read them over. Thank you for the birthday wishes, and also for your kind words. It’s nice to know that others may find me an inspiration, it sure helps me through the hard times 🙂

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  4. Finding a Sober Miracle · August 17, 2017

    I am such a huge fan of people gifted in this way. I was lucky enough to find an incredible woman in Orlando when I lived there, I still occasionally do phone readings with her, although I am not as concerned about the future anymore. One conversation with her, however, and you will never doubt that there is a ‘beyond’ again.
    And happy birthday!!! It’s been fun hanging out with you (virtually) on this journey. 💕

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    • shehidbehindtheglass · August 17, 2017

      Thank you so much! It really is an amazing experience when you do meet someone with that gift. It’s goosebump worthy lol. Thanks for the birthday wishes ❤

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  5. Dewy · August 17, 2017

    Happy Birthday!! Looks like 44 is the beginning to a new life . Congrats 😊

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  6. winoholicblog · August 17, 2017

    Happy Birthday!!!

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  7. Untipsyteacher · August 17, 2017

    You re so young!!
    You are moving ahead and life is opening its doors for you!

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  8. tiredoftreadingwater · August 17, 2017

    Happy belated birthday! x

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  9. Paul S · August 18, 2017

    Happy belated birthday! And great news on the reading. I am envious of anyone who has that kind of gift!

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  10. Ingrid · August 20, 2017

    Happy birthday! And congrats on 295 days!!! I just turned 44 too. It’s gonna be a great year for us. 🙂

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    • shehidbehindtheglass · August 24, 2017

      Thanks Ingrid! YES, it is going to be a really great year for us! Happy belated birthday to you!


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