Checking in at 150 days. Having a hard time the last few weeks, feeling sullen and angry. Mostly angry at the boyfriend as his drinking has ramped up lately (or so it feels like) and other friends who seem to have the “oh really? You’re still not drinking?” Attitude. Honestly I don’t know why it bothers me. I think it’s because I just want to go and do different things and have fun and the boyfriend can’t seem to even comprehend a simple vacation unless it includes a group of his drinking buddies. He cancelled our planned trip to vegas with some bullshit excuse.
So I have been spending time by myself and meeting up with my kids as often as I can. I’m pampering myself and giving myself lots of self love. I’m renting chick flicks and watching them by myself. I can’t wait for the weather to improve here so I can get out more. It’s starting to feel like spring sort of. I’m going to try to go on some weekend road trips and I have a trip up north coming up in 2 months.
Still sober and for that I’m grateful.