Fireworks

My newly sober ex boyfriend just hit 30 days. I’m so proud of him. He said that he had lost track already and seems to be doing well! He asked me what kind of celebration I’m going to do for my 1yr, even though it’s quite a long time from now. He suggested jumping out of a plane. Then he suggested running around dressed like a clown. 

Hmmmm

I said that maybe I will go streaking at a football game. Probably the first time a person has done that sober šŸ˜Š

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20 comments

  1. Rob · February 8

    Let’s get closer to your 1yr, then we’ll talk šŸ™‚

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  2. Elizabeth · February 8

    Really? Come now- you will be far ahead of streaming. Or dressing like a clown. Maybe he should be the one to jump out of a plane.

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  3. I Quit Wineing · February 8

    Jump out of a plane in a clown suit….

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  4. Lamar Washington · February 9

    Please just take it one day at a time. There will be plenty of time for celebration planning when you get there.

    And keep up the good work.

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    • shehidbehindtheglass · February 9

      Lamar, I am taking it one day at a time but the past few weeks have been pretty hard. I started out writing a post yesterday about how hard I’m finding it, especially with the lack of support from my boyfriend and decided to lighten it up instead. I’m not seriously planning a one year celebration, i just found the thought of streaking SOBER at a football game pretty funny haha.
      Hope you Have a wonderful rest of the week and thank you for dropping by šŸ˜Š

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  5. Hurrahforcoffee · February 9

    OK I’m obviously not that adventurous as all three those things sound terrifying to me. I hate clowns, I’m afraid of heights and the thought of public nudity is making me hyperventilate just sitting here!
    I am having my lotus tattoo done on my one year anniversary. Then going dancing! xxx

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    • shehidbehindtheglass · February 9

      Let me just say that I would never jump out of a plane – that’s terrifying to even think about! Also I did enough public nudity in my drinking days šŸ˜…šŸ˜ but had a good giggle at the thought of someone actually streaking sober.
      Oh nice re the tattoo!! Will it be your first one?

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  6. janebare · February 9

    Do you find you have more confidence?
    I do!
    Might explain your interest in streaking. lol

    I’ve sang karaoke since I’ve been sober, just for the adrenaline rush! Something I wouldn’t dare do drunk!

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    • shehidbehindtheglass · February 9

      I actually DO feel more confident! Which is really weird because I used to use the booze for a confidence boost!
      I would love to sing karaoke! Have you seen the movie “my Best friends wedding”? The part in there where Julia Roberts sets up Cameron Diaz to sing in front of people and she’s absolutely terrible, haha, THAT is what I sound like šŸ˜‰
      Have a great day Jane! Thanks for dropping by! šŸ™‚

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  7. Very cute post! It’s funny how we are often more courageous sober.

    On a serious note, you mentioned in your comments, “lack of support from my boyfriend”. If I were in your position I’d have a honest and candid conversation on the support you need from him as you’d partner.

    Also, my first year and a half of trying to get sober I often ‘lost track’ of my days sober because I would fall off the wagon. Once I had real consecutive sober days I never lost count. I’m not saying this is what’s going on with your bf. Just my personal experience.

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    • shehidbehindtheglass · February 9

      Thank you so much for your comments. To be honest, I am a little worried about my ex boyfriend and if he has fallen off – he lives 2,400 km away so we only text and I just have to trust him that he is being honest and hope that he would reach out and confide in me.
      My boyfriend has been unsupportive about this from the beginning and it has been really, really hard. I have tried talking to him, begging, pleading, calmly trying to explain how I’m feeling, etc etc. It honestly has been a heartbreaking part of this journey and has made it feel extremely lonely (and one of the reasons why I cherish this online community so much more).
      Have a wonderful rest of the day Greg šŸ™‚

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      • Paul S · February 9

        Sorry to latch on here…

        I know a lot of folks in recovery who feel upset or dismayed because they feel that some of their family / friends don’t support their recovery. In the end, you have shown in your begging, pleading, etc. to him that we can’t force others to support us. It has to come from them. And why don’t people act the way we expect them? Many reasons. I obviously don’t know your situation, but I know for myself that it took a long time for my wife to trust me. To truly trust me. I broke a ton of trust in my drinking. I broke the trust of a lot of family and friends. I know for others, it’s because they have been hurt, so they recoil a bit. Like a turtle in its shell. Others don’t support because it makes them uncomfortable looking at their own drinking. Other may just not see it as a big deal. I don’t know. I am lucky to *now* have people support my recovery, but as times goes, it’s not the big “thing” it used to be.

        But the most important thing, as you know, is that we do this for ourselves, first and foremost. Whether people stand by us or not, that is not our issues. As long as we stay true to ourselves and our path…that is the most important thing. And also finding community…like here. We care!

        Blessings
        Paul

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      • shehidbehindtheglass · February 9

        Hi Paul,
        He makes sure that the liquor cabinet is fully stocked with my old faves (that he doesn’t drink) “in case anyone drops by that may want to drink it”, chooses to go to the bar every week but if I ask him if we can go out somewhere different he won’t, even on a different night (that was the begging and pleading from me lol) etc. Just stuff like that… I think he’s worried that I’m going to ask him to stop drinking, but I don’t, and I’ve told him that. Ahhh well, it has been a journey for both of us and as you said, bottom line I have to do this for myself, which I am. I’m sure that part of it is that he’s lost his drinking buddy and is worried I won’t be as fun and ahhh… uninhibited šŸ˜ sober lol. He wins though cause I’m also not as sloppy, embarrassing and mean.
        Thank you for latching on, I do love hearing different viewpoints and experiences. Have a wonderful evening Paul!
        Donna

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  8. chaos-xd · February 10

    It’s very sweet and motivational of you to make a post about his progress! Hats off to Mr.Sober Pants! šŸŽ‰šŸŽšŸŽ‰šŸŽ

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  9. Erin · February 25

    I’m curious, what do you get out of your relationship with your boyfriend?

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    • shehidbehindtheglass · February 25

      A lot of loneliness. A lot of inner reflection. A lot of self contemplation. The realization that I need to do this for ME. The hope that it will get better? *sigh*

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