WOTY-word of the year
Over the past few weeks I have seen a lot of bloggers posting about their 2017 “word of the year” – a meaningful word that will be their focus for the year ahead. Hopefully someone will be kind enough to post a link in the comments section to a blog that explains it in more detail. Unfortunately my laptop is out of commission and and navigating around WordPress on my phone and then trying to figure out how to copy, paste, link etc is a little frustrating for this clumsy fingered girl lol.
As soon as I started reading about WOTY, I knew what I wanted mine to be, although I did waver a bit back and forth between it and Serendipity.
My 2017 Word of the Year will be family.
Over the past few years, when my drinking got really bad, I hid behind the glass when it came to a lot of things family related. My dad passed away unexpectedly 2 years ago and I was NOT there for my sisters. I blamed it on how far away I live, but that was a lie. I was hiding in a sad drunken haze. I was also FURIOUS with my mother for over a year (related to the death of my dad), and several months after losing my dad I lost an uncle and my two remaining grandparents. Again I hid. I am ashamed to admit that I didn’t fly out for funerals. A few months after that my neice was diagnosed with leukaemia and again… not there for my sisters. The guilt I feel over all of this combined has been tremendous since I quit drinking. I felt guilty before, and struggled with a whole myriad of feelings that I drank to hide from. Being so far away from family made it easy to hide away and completely scam out on being there for the people who needed me. Now let’s add to that the fact that I was also a single mom with two kids still at home, and no financial support from my ex husband which meant me also working 2 full time jobs. (In addition to quitting smoking and drinking I’ve also quit the 2nd job in order to spend time with the youngest one who is still living at home but is already almost 18). I’m not sure what the year ahead will hold as I navigate this new territory and try to repair and strengthen all of these relationships but I do know that family means a lot to me and I am so, so, SO thankful for the family that I have. My hope is that they will also be thankful for me and that the year ahead will hold some fun adventures and memories with them all (and the new little one on the way!)