I had a terrible night last night. Things happened that I blew completely out of proportion and completely overreacted to, which in turn caused the boyfriend to act defensive and angry. After I stormed off to bed, I lay awake for hours thinking about drinking. I envisioned the scenario in my head of how things would go if I did get up and say eff it and crack open that bottle of wine in the hallway cupboard, or the spiced rum or vodka or anything actually. Hmm let’s see, I would have stewed and got even angrier, I would have freaked out and probably smashed something, thrown the empty wine bottle no doubt because I would have been pissed about drinking again. I would have yelled and cursed at my boyfriend and ended up drinking the entire night away and missed work today. I also would have missed our first decent weather in WEEKS today. Somehow, some way, I managed to keep myself in bed and had one of the worst nights sleeps I have had in a long time. Today, I needed some soul food. I texted some of the girls I know who work shift work to see if any wanted to go snowshoeing. One took the bait, but for the afternoon. I booked the afternoon off work (would have missed the entire day if I had given in last night! ) and then I texted another friend to see if she could talk, saying that I was having a bad day and needed some laughs. We laughed, joked and cried for an hour and I felt so much better. Then I went snowshoeing this afternoon and now I feel great. It is beautiful outside and we’ll be lucky to get this weather for a week tops before the temperature plunges. I’m at 55 days today. (I counted wrong on my Saturday post) My emotions are all over the place, but it’s amazing how nature, that natural soul food, can calm me right down.