Oh lolly… lots of triggers for me today. I had a meeting this morning about 45 mins away, downtown. I gave myself an hour for it because I wasn’t sure how the roads would be after 2 days of snowy weather. TWO HOURS. It took me 2 friggin hours. #1, It was not bad weather today. #2, I drive a car with standard transmission, winter tires and traction control and I drive carefully and keep a good distance between me and the car in front. #3, there were patches of snow on the roads and some sections were snow covered. #4, why does it seem like everyone either drives at turtles pace or breakneck speed with no in between, and I get stuck behind the turtle while the speeder rides my ass? #5, apparently the person behind me today can read lips, no sign language was required.
So I was late for the meeting. After the meeting, a group of us went to try out one of those panic rooms. It was fun. A little different than I was expecting ( I think the one we went to was a knock off version or something because it was nothing like ones I’ve heard about or seen pics of… haha). It was with a fun group though, a group that rarely gets together to do anything social together so I’m glad that we did this rather than head to a pub or something.
The drive home was another one with my shoulders up by my ears, glaring bitterly at every store I passed that sold wine. Well, perhaps more longingly than bitterly. I feel like the drunk me thinks that she has just been put on a time out, and she’s gone from being mad about it to being apologetic and lonely. “Just let me out! I promise to behave. I won’t go all CAAHHRRAAZZZYYY like last time!” “Shut up! You’re making me sound all caahhrazzyy by talking about you like you’re a separate entity for gods sake” ha, even when I was drinking I’d refer to drunk me like a different person “I did what?! Sheesh, darn that drunk Tate” ANYWAY… made it home safely! Now it’s time to relax, with tea. Day 44 😁