Day 13! The weather here was amazing on the weekend. Usually we’re cold and snowy and barreling full force into our 6 months of winter. This weekend was beautiful, sunny and warm and Saturday night the entire province was covered in smokey haze from everyone having bonfires while shouts of joy were heard all over “Can you believe it? This is NOVEMBER!” lol. I have put in a personal order for another weekend with the same type of weather next weekend because I was indoors for most of this last one, and at a hockey game drinking hot chocolate on Saturday night instead of outside at a bonfire.
Saturday morning I ran some errands and when I got home around lunch the boyfriend was on his way out to pick up something from a friend’s house. He asked me if I wanted to go. This friend quit drinking 3 months ago and is in AA so I was actually kind of excited about going -the first person in real life I can talk to who is going through this too. We got there and as soon as we got out of the truck he offered us a beer. My heart kind of sank a little bit, and I automatically assumed that maybe he had started drinking again. I declined, boyfriend accepted and the friend grabbed himself a pepsi. I realize that I’m only 13 days in (7 weeks since the start), but I honestly can’t see myself 3 months from now having wine on hand to offer to my friends who stop by. I feel that it would just make me… sad. I think that I’d just be thinking non-stop about the bottle of wine in my cupboard or fridge. I think I’d spend the entire visit staring at their wine glasses and not being able to focus on the conversation. Heaven forbid that there would be any wine left over because I’d have to pour it out right away. I have been ok-ish around people who are drinking, but so far I haven’t had to be in the comfort of my own home, in my favourite drinking place, with people who are drinking my favourite drink.